Flash Back Friday Pregnancy 1,2, and 3 HEART=poured out.

Although I was only pregnant with Curren 3 years ago..it really seems like such a far away memory, so much has happened since then.  I'm feeling a little pregnancy nostalgia..which is weird because I am pregnant, but knowing this will be my last...and signing the paperwork last week to make it official is weighing heavy on my heart. 



5 months pregnant with Curren James Urbain


After Van is born...and assuming I will breastfeed him for at least 1 year like the other two (probably more since I won't be getting pregnant again!) I will have been either pregnant and or breastfeeding for over 4 and a half years straight! I don't say that as poor me...I haven't had my body to myself blah blah...I am loving this part of my life and it will be REALLY WEIRD to move on from that...it's like quitting a job you love but it's time to move on to bigger and better things I guess.

8 months pregnant with Finley Sage Marie

 I signed the paper work last week saying that if I were to have a C-Section, for whatever reason..while they are in there they will tie my tubes. Why does typing that make me cry?? Am I insane?? I cannot handle more than 3 kids, and neither can my checkbook, or my marriage! But it's just a sad thought. I will be 26 and sterile...eeeesh I don't like that...26 and neutered...26 and fixed....EFF what do you call it??  Ryan will also be getting the snip snip, so at least we'll be ________ (whatever you want to call it) together.  Why double up you ask?  Finley and Van were complete miracles on how we got pregnant..miracles we are very happy to have...but knowing we just wanted 3...we don't want any more miracles in that department.

6 months pregnant with Van

So, here is a little flashback on my last two pregnancies, and my current one.  I am really soaking in every jab, kick, roll, punch, and rapid spurts of acid reflux I am getting this time around.  I am excited at the thought of having Curren, Finley, and Van to raise up, and just focus on them and guide them as best as I (we) can.

Just a side note..this pregnancy we are having a few little minor issues..I'm usually not a worry some person- and I'm trying not to be- but this is difficult to have on my mind. I've never had any issues with my other two, so maybe keep Van Man in your prayers tonight, we should be getting results back next week and we just hope everything is AOKAY with our littlest one.