Debating

In a few weekends Ryan has a conference in a beautiful part of Northern California, and the kids and I are going to tag along and make a vacation out of it, figured we might as well- free gas up, and free hotel room, and Ryan is going to be reimbursed for his food....and we're 99% sure a vacation is out of the question this year, unless we hit the lotto.  We have a friend up that way and she said there are lots of great things to do for toddlers..children's museums, and a little amusement park that's just for little guys.

But then last night I had a very selfish thought that I feel guilty for.

What if we left Curren at Grandma's house and we up with just Fin?

The longest i've been away from Curren is when we were in the hospital with Finley, and it wasn't even 2 days. Before that we left him one other time over night and I was a mess. I missed him sooo much I could hardly look at the pictures our family was texting us of him.

Ryan will be at conferences most of the days (3).  So it will be me with two kids in a hotel room, trying to keep one quiet so the other can sleep most of the time, and the one day Ryan has a break we can go do the fun stuff.

It would be so wonderful to get 3 full nights sleep! (Finley sleeps through the night, Curren does NOT) sometimes he does, sometimes he doesn't it's a hit or miss.

But I know we would be up there thinking 'ohhh Curren would love this' to everything!

It would be nice to spend some time just Ryan and I. Before we know it Fin will  be crawling and as you moms know, it's a whole different ball game when that happens.

Plus Finley is so little she can be transported everywhere in the Ergo Carrier and we can do things late cause she can just sleep in there, she is great everywhere we go. Plus homegirl doesn't take a bottle so she's gotta come along for the ride!!

so hmmm what to do what to do